Negative Thoughs Dumping Ground

i have finally moved on.

i have come to realisation tat i no longer miss him as much i did in the past.
maybe the wounds have healed.
the pain has subsided.
i no longer cry cuz of him anymore.
i have grown up. =D

zheng za.
this is the chinese compo title i did today.
suddenly i recalled of those hard times i had with him in the past.
it was so so tough.
recalling the past was painful.
i didnt wan to.

i rmb the times when i cried so hard
or when my heart hurts so much
when things werent wat i wanted for us.
although i gave up a couple of times,
i still held up till this last moment.
he chose to give up.
till now, i still dun understand.
or maybe i do.
but i jus dun wan to accept his reason.

the months tat followed were so very painful.
hurtful.
i as though wanted to end my life.
such foolish tots.
until a few weeks ago, i was still holding on.
but i have woken up.
it IS time to wake up.

it's never ever possible.

u are outta of my lifee.
i dun wan to see u again.
i dun wan to talk to u again.
i dun wan to sms u again.

i really realised tat lovee is all superficial.
we dun need it at all.
all we really need is frens n family.
they are all i need.
they are the ones i can depend on.

im on the next chapter of my life.
:)

im thinking of dropping econs le. =x
jus wana concentrate on the rest of the subjects.
i wan to score well in them.
im still considering if i shld dropp.

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

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